I stumbled on this blog today while looking for something else. I can't believe all the minutes, days, and years of passing since I began my journey.
Reflecting back to when I left Idaho on June 6, 2005, I feel like a Phoenix risen from the ashes. Divine wisdom, internal knowing, peace within. Don't get me wrong, it's a struggle between heaven and hell inside my head all the time. Coming back to center, finding peace is easier and easier as the days flow by. Letting go of anything is never easy. One step backward and two steps forward.
I am definitely a wanderer. And, it is true what they say about not all that wonder are lost. I am not lost, I am discovering. It's a universal truth discoveries are made by questioning answers. Questions drive consciousness, more importantly the flow to no questioning. At some point that has become second nature awareness. To be present, to understand what you are feeling at each moment.
I am just coming out of a very dark period of confusion. A failed relationship that I had belief would be more than what it was. My little dog of sixteen years passed. Within the struggle of understanding all of that, somehow my clarity is more acute. Or so it seems.
The thing about life, is not knowing until you know.
I am awake, but my soul is still sleeping in your heart. ~ Mariana Fulger